the rabbit hole

the golden age.
the brightest state of mind, girlhood.
sparkling hopes while glitching in desperate. 
feeling good, feeling awful, changing ideas at every couting second. 
"I can do this!" 
"I absolutly cannot do this." 
relationships making me feel sick, 
falling down the rabbit hole. 
I should have known better. 
how can I be wise if I don't feel prepared? 
how can I be something, I am too tiny.